Just feeling kinda heart sick lately. This weekend was a rough one. Which my weekends aren’t typically stressful at all but this one just got off to a rough start. I was running around like crazy Friday trying to organize a bridal shower and then my Mother posts on Facebook that she’d been diagnosed with Stage 1 Ductal Carcinoma, post lumpectomy. She didn’t call her children or her parents, she just posted it on Facebook. Which was made an even bigger deal because I lacerated my cornea at work. (A minor injury that healed in 24 hours) which after notifying my boyfriend over the phone what had happened, I posted it on Facebook. She flipped her fucking lid. Called me yelling the whole time about how I should have called her. My Mother is known to be ridiculously over dramatic, I twisted my ankle in middle school and she kept saying that I had broken it. Not the case of course.
Thanks to her not clarifying most of the diagnosis on Facebook, my youngest sister who has had cysts removed from her breasts before freaked. She became hysterical and had no idea if she should get checked or not. So she called and I dealt with that as well as speaking with my grandmother on the subject.
Then there’s the bridal shower nonsense. The Bride’s Mom is pushy as heck and went so far as to spoil the bachelorette party surprise for the bride simply because she didn’t agree with what we wanted to do for her.
After all this, I did break down. I cried a bit and then I went to the gym on Sunday for awhile and just made myself sweat until I felt better. When I got home I checked for any updates in the lives of my friends and found pictures my Ex’s sister had posted of him with his new girlfriend. She’s not all that special looking but it still stung on some level. Made me sad in a way. His best friend still talks to me about him sometimes. I often remind myself that I wasn’t happy with him and I’m much better off with Matt. I just need a break from all this, before I lose my mind.
<3 Just a little food for thought. Matthew and I aren’t perfect creatures. We disagree on politics, music and movies but our differences are what make us so diverse in our relationship. #boyfriend , #relationship, #love, #affection, #perfection
Matt’s reaction to his boudoir photos I gave him for Valentines day.
For throw back Thursday, Matthew and I in 7th and 8th grade at VMS back in 2002. We never met in middle school, we knew of each other but just never formally met. #tbt, #throwbackthursday, #middleschool, #boyfriend
Discussing Bridesmaid stuff… I need more Vodka. Matthew is making me a drink currently.
Pictures from Christmas Day. My niece Charlotte’s first Christmas. Her birthday is coming up in February.
After looking through all these photos tonight, I got a bit nostalgic. Just had to post a few more. You’ll notice his hair gets longer and longer. He’s currently growing it out to donate to a cancer charity.
Matt surprised me and bought me an iPad yesterday. Been having a bit of fun with this photo booth thing.
- Matt: If Kat Dennings appeared and asked you to run away with her, you would wouldn't you?
- Me: *Shrug* Perhaps.
- Matt: You'd run off and leave me here at home. All alone with the cats. *Fake Sobs*
- Me: See that's where you're wrong....
- Matt: ?
- Me: I'd totally take the cats with me.
- Matt: Baby that's cold...
Captured moments from a series of bad decisions last night. I still have a stream of my bf’s coworkers showing up at my house to apologize for being idiots. Matthew has a lovely gash on his forehead from being dropped on his face mid keg stand. Which before he did so I commented that I was the sober voice of reason saying it was a BAD IDEA.
It’s amazing the effect our favorite burrito place has on him. Lol.
Literally just got back from the Porn shop to find that my Boyfriend bailed to go hang out with his friend. Bought a few things that I guess I’ll be using alone. If your lady is going to the porn shop… wouldn’t you wanna stick around to see what she bought? It’s a bubble bath and some me time before bed. :3
It’s the little things he does that give me butterflies. #love, #romance, #relationship, #boyfriend
Stayed home sick from work today. My head is achy and stuffy. Matthew stayed home as well for his own reasons and he’s been making me tea and food. He enjoys taking care of me and it’s taken me awhile to get use to letting him.
Conversations with Ryan.